Sleepless Summer

Well, I've decided that sleep is no longer an option in my life at this point. I also decided that the reason my summer sucked so much before was that A.) I was sleeping and B.) I didn't hang out at Jay and Josh's. Josh happens to be Noelle's older brother so I've known him for pretty much ever, but i just met Jay some time last week. In the past week I have been there every night, slept over twice, gone to denny's about 5 times, and slept a total of approximately 12 hours. Yet somehow I still enjoy my life...other than going to work. That still sucks just on sheer principle. It might not be so bad if I didn't have to sit here for 8 hours ALONE. Isn't that some kind of safety hazzard? I'm the only employee in the hotel after about 4:00. What if something happened to me? I could be laying on the floor unconcious for hours before someone found me...bleeding from the head. Yes, I'm being over dramatic, but seriously. Leaving a 19 year old girl alone in a hotel office for 6 hours. It's not like I don't feel safe, but some of the assholes that come in here late at night make me wish that the night window was still here. That way I could lock myself in and talk to them through glass. Or ignore them if i want to...I really wish I could do that sometimes lol. AE isn't terrible because the shifts are short...and there are people to talk to.

Bleh...I miss sleeping but I like hanging out at my new home too much. Yes Jay and josh's has become my new home, Q's as well. We're both there every night for no reason. I go home to shower and resupply before work, but as soon as I get out I head over there. So that is my life now. Work, work, Jay's, sleep or Denny's, work, work, work, work, work. I'm ready to quit both jobs. Or at least one. But i can't becasue I get more hours and money from red roof so I want that one, but 3-11 sucks. I could quit AE, but I want that job for when I come home on breaks and stuff because they're good about that. If I call a couple weeks ahead of time Adrianna will put me on the schedule. I would like to just cut down on my hours at the hotel, work like 3-8 of 5-10 but there is no one to work my shifts since we STILL haven't hired anyone else. If I could get those hours, even 6 nights a week I'd be happy. Getting out at 8 would be AMAZING!!! But it's not going to happen so I should just stop right now.

Ok, well now that I've gone on and on about nothing just to pass the time, I suppose I should get back to work. Even though it's 5:00 and I only have 9 arrivals left. Tonight is going to go by so freaking slowly.

Wow...

Ryan just left for Japan for two years. I didn't think it would hit me like this. As he was leaving I could see how upset Jen was and that's what did it for me. Thank goodness Q was here because honestly it would have been about 10 times worse if he wasn't. It seems like the military is taking all of my friends away. First Ryan, then Jarrod, then JP, and now Jay. I can't help but wonder who is next. I know that it's what they want, but it's so hard to keep saying goodbye while pretending that everything is OK. Who knows if we'll ever see each other again because when they all come back we will all be at such different points in our lives that who can say what will happen. So we're saying goodbye pretending that things will be the same when they come back, when in reality we all know it will never be the same ever again.

It's so much easier to think that things are never going to change.

A Good Weekend

It's finally starting to feel like summer. This weekend has been pretty awesome so far, I didn't do a whole lot on my days off, but I did get a new cell phone that actually works :-) I also got to hang out with people I haven't seen in forever. On Friday Q, Malone, and I went over to Stefano's to go swimming and watch a movie and whatnot. We invited more people but apparently they had better things to do, but it was a good time anyway. According to the guys I'm "almost one of the girls" so we pretty much played 20 questions, which was actually quite amusing. I crashed there for the night and got to listen to three guys snore all night. Thank god I can sleep through things like that, but I did wake up a couple of times to hear it. I got home around 11 the next morning and Sara was just getting up. I was jealous lol. Then I had to go to work, of course but afterwards I went to my friend Lindsey's whom I haven't seen in forever. She was having a small party and it was most of the old party crew. Ryan, Jake, Roman, and Gary Jon were there, Q opted out, so basically we were missing Jarred and Q. It was a good time though. So obviously Ryan is home. He stopped by Stefano's for a couple minutes and I almost didn't recognize him when I first saw him. He actually has a tan and wears colors! Basically, he looks healthier lol. He didn't stay there for long so Last night was the first time we've hung out since he's been home and we all had a lot of laughs. We all got pretty wasted last night and I am definately feeling it still. (See I said I would go to work with a hangover, this is the second time actually LOL). Of course sleeping in a itty-bitty tent did nothing for me either. My entire body is sore and I could definately use a nap right about now. I won't get to really sleep all that much in the next few days though because I work until 11 tonight, have to be at the mall by 9:30am, then work another 3-11 at the hotel where I'll spend the night because I have to be in Oneonta by 8:45 am for orientation on Tuesday. I'm really looking forward to that though. Hopefully I can find a decent person to room with or something, though I'll never meet another Char :'-(

Clearly it's a very slow night here at the hotel since I have time to change my template and post a short novel, but I forgot to bring a book so I'm trying to find ways to amuse myself. I was really tempted to call in today cuz I feel like crap, but that would be impossible since we don't have enough people working the desk so there would be no one to cover my shift. So I'm stuck here moaning and groaning when I could have been sleeping or with a bunch of my friends who are currently swimming in Em's amazingly awesome pool. Such is life...

Oh and a little side rant...GUYS ARE SUCH SLOBS!!! When I came in yesterday this office was a mess! There were papers everywhere, things that should have been done weren't done, so I had to do them. Ugh! And it was the manager working the shift before me!! Mom, you were right about him being useless lol. Reg slips weren't finished, he didn't change the video tape, the bathroom was a mess, the list goes on and on. Oh, and he had the baseball game on. So we all know what he was doing with his time. OK I think I'm done now...I just had to throw that in there.

I need a nap...

Pathetic

Things are slowly starting to get better. I had almost a whole day off on sunday and it was amazing! I had a two hour meeting at AE to learn about the new back to school floor set coming in this week. (They're bringing back tapered leg jeans yuck!) I was also named "Rookie of the Month" which is basically employee of the month for the new hires. So I turned bright red for about 10 minutes and then bolted out the door lol. I now have a little charm for my lanyard wohoo, and more hours because of it. Greaaaat. Oh well, I'm just looking forward to next week. I have three nights off in a row!!! Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday!!! I'm ridiculously psyched, but not because I'll get to go out and do stuff with my friends, but because Ill get to have dinner and go to sleep early. My life is so pathetic. lol. I'm 19 and I can't wait to go to bed at 9. Yeah...I need to go back to school...SOON!