Just One of Those Days

I am totally exhausted. We aren't even half-way through the semester and already I am drained. I usually complain about having so many random breaks every month, but damn I could really use one right about now! We get a random Friday off at some point this month, but that's it until Thanksgiving. Not having my car really stinks. If I still had Arthur I'd probably be on my way home right now. You know that feeling when you just want to get away from your life for a while? Well that's where I'm at right now. I see the same people over and over; everyday it's the same thing. Yes, I know that's how life is, but I wouldn't mind the repetitiveness if it was something I actually wanted to be doing. The only thing that is motivating me to go to class and do my work is the thought of getting out of here. I've never failed a class before, but I honestly don't care anymore. I'm trying to well solely so I can graduate early, keep my GPA up so I can go to Yale in a few years, and just get on with real life. Everyone keeps telling me to enjoy my time in college and not rush it. I've been in college for over two yeas, I've gone to two different schools, I've had an internship, what else is there? Every year it's the same thing over and over. I go to class, I go to rehearsal, I bust my ass working on too many shows, I burn myself out by the end of the semester. It's a vicious cycle that will go on repeating until I graduate. The people are the same every year, the parties are the same, the drama is the same.
I know people don't take me seriously here (the students anyway) but I'm pretty sure my professors all know how determined I am to do this. I think they're actual fairly impressed that I'm getting out early when a lot of theatre majors stay for five years or more. I'm completing the major and a minor in two and a half years, why can't they do it in four?
Someone on the bridge today told me that I give off that ASM vibe. I was so insulted by that. I looked at him and asked how he figured that since I started out as a stage manager here. Apparently, since I am an ASM this semester, and I was an ASM this summer, I will forever be an ASM. PSHHT I DON'T THINK SO! Then again I'm pretty sure that most of the students here have no idea what it means to work your way up. They all expect to have their goals handed to them. I feel sorry for them.
Another thing, why do graduates insist on coming back? Once you graduate, that's it, move on, go live your life! One of the girls who graduated from here last year stayed over the summer "to save up some money." She moved back home--which is MUCH closer to NYC by the way--for about 3 weeks before moving back to Oneonta. I don't understand that at all. If you want to be an actress, Oneonta is not the place for you. This place has nothing to offer except two colleges. Once I'm out of here, I'm out of here. I may come back to see a couple of shows if I can, but only for a couple years, Why come back after all my friends have graduated? Well that's my rant. I'm just antsy to get out of college I guess.
I always thought I'd be afraid to graduate. When did I grow up? I don't remember having time for that. Real life was the scariest idea a few years ago. I think that's why I was going to be a teacher, I'd never actually have to leave the academic world. Now I see how completely wrong I was about that lol. Only a year and two months left of this nonsense.