Oh Stress

This semester is stressful beyond belief. No matter how much I try I can never seem to control my own life. I was finally comfortable with the point I was at in my life when a couple of huge events took place that shattered what little security I had. So now my life is completely topsy turvy and I have no idea where the heck to go from here. I'm not going to go into detail about things, but I am so confused right now I don't know which way is up.
So on top of my personal life being ridiculously complicated beyond belief I also have school to worry about. There are not enough hours in the day for me to get everything done and I'm going to tear my hair out. As of right now I have a five page paper, reading for western civ, research for a 5-8 page research paper (which will probably be more like 10 pages), start a rough draft of said research paper, reading for world lit along with a reading journal documenting everything we've read for the entire semester, reteach myself the choreography for tap, and a scenic design visual research package to work on. All that is due this week. I'm probably forgetting something and more will probably be assigned throughout the week. I realize I should have gotten some of this done over the week long break I just had, but I'm sorry I like to take a break from school for a bit. I did get a little bit done but I really didn't have much of an opportunity.
I also have the show to worry about too. We are off book now, which is irritating in and of itself becasue the actors don't know most of act 2 so it's painful to sit there and feed them lines for 4 hours. Our costume designer is MIA and one of our actors may have to be replaced. I'm having a great time.


I keep threatening to drop out and run away. It will never happen, but a girl can dream can't she?