A Not So Happy Post

Thursday night I found out that Ryan was going to ship out on Dec. 13 for the Air Force, origianlly he wasn't supposed t oleave until after the 1st of the year, so I wasn't that worried because I'd be able to say goodbye and hang out with him before he goes. So I was kinda mad about the change in plans but I was dealing with it. I ended up staying up all night talking to my FYM, Josh about random things ; movies, music, books, family, etc. it was a lot of fun until I looked at the clock and realized it was 7:15 am. I had class at 9 and I had forgotten to work on my presentation due later in the day. I almost fell asleep in theatre so I blew of philosophy and worked on my project. 20 minutes later it was ready to go (thank God it was a group project). The presentation went well, then I had to go to English and write an in class essay that will be submitted in our final portfolio, worth 20% of our grade. I forgot to do the reading that went with it. The essay was about bullshit, so I bullshitted my way through it. lol it was by far one of the worst things I've ever written.
I went back to my room, thinking I would be able to take a nap before dinner because I had now been up for about 27 hours. Nope, didn't happen. I cleaned my room and then sat down to read and pass out when my phone rings. Q called to tell me that Ryan is now shipping out on December 6th. I had to get off the phone before I lost it. No one was in my room, thank God, and I just lost it. I went through almost a whole box of tissues and I really needed Nobe to be here, but I couldn't ask her to becasue she had auditions and stuff. So we talked for a little while and I also talked to Q again online (there was no way I could use the phone). At this point, with my face bright red and puffy, Lisseth decides she need to come borrow one of my pans so they can cook something. I gave it to her and I guess she went back and told Kristin I was really upset so Kristin came in. Then Raisa came in. UGH. This was the one time I really really really liked Raisa; she got everyone out and said that she knows she likes to be alone when stuff like this happens. I wanted to hug her lol. I finally calmed down a little and went to take a shower, which lasted probably 45 minutes to an hour. I looked like complete Hell, after being awake for nearly 30 hours and then bawling my eyes out, let's just say I looked like a disheveled crackwhore. I've never seen my eyes so sunken in and dark. Rather than doing the smart thing and going to sleep I went out front becasue Josh was sitting (they have to sign people in and stuff at night) and he told me to come keep him company. So I went out there thinking I'd only stay a little while, but no I was there from about 7:30 until midnight. He ordered food and I realized that the only thing I had eaten in the last 24 hours was a couple bites of ramen and some juice. I had about 4 wings, the sause was pretty nasty so I didn't want to eat any more and I didn't have my pills on my so I didn't eat the cheesy bread. We had a good time though. It was Josh, Megan (another FYM), me, and some other girl I know but I can't remember her name. She rooms with my friend Devan though. Anyway...we played Disney Trivia (I won) and made fun of Josh and goofed around. It made me feel a lot better, but no less tired. Then Q called again and it got a little creepy because Josh and Q would say the same things at the same time in hte same way. I was like ok sorry Q I'm getting freaked out I gotta go! lol. There are definately too many Joshes in my life, that's for sure! I went to bed around 12:30this morning and woke up at about 2:30 this afternoon. I've never felt better! I'm still a little upset that I won't get to say goodbye to Ryan, but I'll deal. So that was my wonderful thrusday-friday with no sleep. Sounds fun, right?
Now I'm going to go relax and posssibly read the book I stole from Josh, and have some Ramen. I'd make tea but Josh took my good mug (but I have his fuzzy blanket so we're even).

No one but Noelle will really get this one...but last night I had a dream that Mrs. Showers was trying to kill me and a couple other people I was with. Aldi and I think it was supposed to be Vos, a made guest appearance as well. Gym teachers are so sketch! lol